Vines and Wines.

Despite all my recent sadness, I advise all of you to chase your dreams with 100% speed.

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I don’t want to talk about this on my other blog because I’ll get all these sympathetic and pity messages that I just don’t know to reply to.

I’m scared for this new beginning. I don’t know what I’m going to do when uni starts. I miss my dad so much these days. I wish things would just go back to normal. I’ve got so much other shit going on and I feel so twisted and for the past couple of days, seems like I just need an excuse to cry. I don’t have many to talk to and I don’t want them to see the wreck I am becoming again. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to keep people in my life. They all go eventually and I can sense some leaving already. I just want to get away from here but I can’t. I just want dad to be ok. I just want things to go back to normal. I don’t know what to do.

"When I see you the world stops. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. There’s nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops and it is a beautiful place and there is only you. Just you, and my eyes staring at you.
When you’re gone, the world starts again, and I don’t like it as much. I can live in it, but I don’t like it. I just walk around in it and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It’s the best fucking thing I’ve ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, beautiful girl, is why I stare at you."

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James Frey, A Million Little Pieces (via executions)

(via kelseyanda)